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It was the best of times it was the worst of times...

I find it fitting to start off with this quote as it truly is the events of my past month. I'm newly wed...wow that's odd to say. My wonderful husband of almost 3 weeks however is leaving in less the 2 weeks for a deployment to..."A country shown on the news". If you hadn't guessed I married the army. This came to me as a shock. If you would have asked me two years ago if I'd be married I'm sure I would have said fat chance, but here I am.

Its 3am right now as I type with one eye open on my blackberry as SW snores loudly in my ear. I can't sleep per my normal nightly routine. I've been in this cycle for 2 months now. I'm sure the sleep deprivation is brought on by the stress that is my life. I must be slightly crazy or maybe just an overachiever but in a month long period I've decided (or rather fate has) that all my life altering (take that as stress causing) events need to take place. I've gotten married, moved out of my own place (well that was almost 2 months ago) into my aunts, while waiting for my very first home purchase to close. Along with that my husband now of 2 weeks and 5 days will be leaveing for his 12 months of ACSOTN while I unpack. I'm also trying to grasp the vast knowledge of being an army wife.

I never knew it would be this hard to do. First let me start with wedding junk. The process of getting married...so f'ing easy! U pay money say this is the time and place show up in a dress a tux 10 minutes later your Mrs. SW! You presents and picture so wonderful. It was the least stress I've had in the past month. Granted SW and I did Vegas but I loved it. I was never stressed about it and neither was SW. Its the after that causes stress. Now changing a last name from one thing to another is hard stuff but try doing it on a time line as well as then registering your self with the army! Holy mother of God! Its the most I have ever waited in line. I've gotten 27 different I'd cards not to mention never know what address to put on shiz because I'm in the guest room at my aunts till house buying hell 09 is over. As part of SW deploying I've also got to get 27 POA's allowing me to essentially do everything he could including but not limited to change his sexual orientation or enroll in monkey school. The man has got to love me to entrust that power, although this does mean I have to take care of all this bills while he's gone...maybe the feeling was more like love cause I'm weak enough to take on this daunting task. That's really another cause of stress; to be responsible for someone else's debts. SW is a lovely man but needs major help in his previous financial planning skills. I have been a pre planner for years. I decided 2 years ago that by 2010 I'd be debt free except for a mortgage. Now besides a very small car note I am...until I got married. Now I've taken on debt beyond belief. Its not super bad because its manageable but man I really thought I was done. Not to mention this debt was brought on my SW's wonderful ability to have his identity stolen as well as to his memory to prove he wasn't the one to obtain the mortgage on his sisters home. So along with the student loans that went into collections because no one bothered to pay them for what ever reason. I am no "stuck" with getting SW's name off of fore closer papers on his sister house that just happened to be signed while he was in ACSOTN last time but notarized in IL. Fax's have been sent. I seem to have gone off track...though this causes to my stress and to do list.

Where was I...oh yes name change. I don't think the process is so difficult but normal People don't have to do it in 3 days. My case I'm married Saturday fly home Sunday change my drivers license Monday (did you know in Western WA there is 1 DMV open Mondays?) Got a name change on Tuesday for my SS#, Wednesday got military I'd all while working full time in a place 35 miles away from home and the military post SW's stationed at. Yeah that was nice I know.

Now buying a house is also stressful but I am buying a bank owned house and using my employer as a lender. I'm not going to talk about this at this time but I'll just say never again. But I did sign the offer in my maiden name so name change paper trail had to follow that course too which means 12 addendum's to sign all while trying to remember my name changed so I no longer have that as my initial rather this now.

I feel at this point in my life. I really should be enjoying my new married life gazing into SW's eyes loving on him. Instead I've been making check lists and arguing with escrow and faxing the POA to Pam at bla investments so I can pay bills.

I know Rome took some time to complete and that I have the restof my life to complete these new beginnings. But I may only have the rest of SW's life to see him, and for me that may be only 2 more weeks one of which will be spent moving. Its hard to keep my cool or even to let people know how I feel. But I'll tell you when you tell me to just relax, take a step back, I'm new at this stage in life. Its really hard maybe you can just appreciate I wait to got to bed before crying at night.

Its 4 am now...maybe I'll get some sleep tomorrow. Right now I'm going to listen to SW snore.