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Yesterday I received a text from a friend that said "having hapies"....first thought on that was huh? After further investigation what she was asking is if I was making "happy memories to get you through the next stretch". I am, I have began to thing that it may make things harder. Knowing what I know now and being around SW for so long and getting used to him being home as well as not working, since I took so much time off.
One of my biggest fears of SW being gone was the doubt I had that I could remember the love I have for him. I never should have doubted that. Its funny I look at him and watch him and love him more and more. Good God that smile is the best thing in the world. We had so much fun and we do every day, regardless of the task. We go shopping and have fun. We can clean and have fun. It is so funny to me the things SW does when he's home. I have not unpack the closet in the house, first thing SW did when he got here. He unpacked it. I was down stairs doing what ever probably watching TV (yeah we got it like that, don't need to be in the same room to enjoy one another). I went upstairs to "check in" and he said oh come look at this...Brings me to the closet and he had unpacked the boxes and laid all the shoes out on the floor all neat and organized. I turn and look...there it is BIG ass cheese of a grin. I love it!
He and I have talked not deep conversations like we did before he left but we have talked. He knows I'm not as psycho on the army stuff any more. It took a lot and some crazy hair pulling but I'm over it. This is my life now and I'm in 100% confidence that SW will make the right decision in his career. Sometimes I need to know that its OK to hand the reins over to him.
This R&R has given me time to realize SW and I are so stinking lucky. I love him and I really couldn't be happier.